So if you're a guy, you won't really understand this but if you're a girl you may be able to sympathize. Every woman menstruates (gets her period for all you noobs out there). Some women  have generally okay periods and other women, like myself, go through hell and back during theirs. Every girls is different and every girl reacts differently on her period. I personally am that of an abandoned/injured animal searching for relief in the corner weeping whilst in the fetal position.

The first thing that I would like to do is this:
Loki being my ovaries.

And this.

  Ovary pain is probably the worst thing I have experienced in my life time. If I were to compare it to child birth, I'm sure child birth is worse. But I've never been pregnant so I wouldn't know. But my ovaries are complete and utter assholes. I would love to get a hysterectomy and get these bastards ripped out of my being. People say, "what if you want kids in the future?" Meh. Maybe some day I will want 2 little parasites wandering this earth to carry on whatever I leave behind. But right now all of my lady parts in the southern region can die in a fire.






The women in my family get hysterectomies and have a history of non-cancerous fibroid tumors. They get that done in their 30's or 40's or so. I'm 23 now. I don't know if I have them or any of the problems that my family has dealt with cuz I'm at such a young age. But If I get it taken care of now, then I may not share the same fate. However, a small part of me would be extremely happy/relieved if the doctor tells me that I can't get pregnant. I feel bad for thinking that because there are tons of women who try and try and try to get pregnant and it doesn't happen. And here I am probably perfectly fertile and I want to smash it into the ground with the force of a thousand iron dwarves.

Is it selfish of me to want my ovaries/uterus/cervix to just not exist? I mean sure maybe the eggs in my body will become future doctors, lawyers, the president, a famous artist or musician etc... but right now I just worry about myself. I am absolutely terrified of the thought of being pregnant and having children. When I think about something growing inside of me I feel very anxious and like I want to vomit. Is this something every girl experiences at one point or another? Or am I just messed up? I dunno.

I made this blog because a few weeks ago I had my period and the pain that came with it was a bitch and a half. Not only did I get my period once, but I got it TWICE. That hasn't happened to me since I was 15. I think it was just because I had a lot of things going on that caused an increase of stress but it could also be health related.

So  I'll be getting my self checked out and hoping it's nothing serious. But I still hate my ovaries. Fuck you ovaries. FUUUUUUUUU.