It's a new year!
5:05 PM
Oh man it's a new year and as always with a new year comes new year resolutions and failures. Usually I'm a person to sit back and listen to every NYR followed by watching 85% of people fail at whatever they were trying to accomplish, avoid, change, etc... However, this year, I have an actual resolution. I have a goal. I want to finally start driving. I'm going to do the whole getting a permit thing, followed by getting a license along with purchasing a car and paying that nasty thing called a car payment and insurance. YIKES.
So with any goal there are pre-goals attached with that goal. I can't just jump into this goal without backing myself up with some support first. First I will be saving up money. I think that if I have the money to buy a car or at least put a nice down payment on one, I will be more inclined to follow through with actually making the purchase. While I am saving up for this important transaction I'll be looking at my drivers manual. I'm sure I can pass the test without looking at it because half of my friends didn't study and they're driving. They're also terrible drivers. But I digress, if they can drive, so can I. So saving up money + permit are the first goals.
Once I have the permit thing down I'm probably going to purchase a car or just practice driving in other cars until I purchase my own car. From there I will work on getting my license and practicing some more in my car or the car that I would be practicing in if I don't already own a car.
I don't really plan on driving much when I finally do begin to drive because I walk to work and I don't really go anywhere unless my boyfriend is going somewhere and we just go together. So my car will probably be lonely, a lot. Fortunately, there's a few people in my household who will probably like to borrow my car here and there which I'd gladly let them do if I'm not using it very often.
I think I want to do this just to finally say I have it done. It's not something I was actively seeking beforehand and it's not something that I'm in dire need of at the moment. But there are situations where I feel like if I could drive, I could take part in more things without feeling like a burden to other people. Plus if I ever wanted a different career or if my relationship ever ended this is something I would need to get myself back on my feet in the future. I don't see myself using it much though now or in the future so gas cost shouldn't be much of an issue.
A lot of people ask me why I don't drive and I always tell them that it's because I never needed to drive. Which is true, but I also have a fear of driving. It scares me. It's not so much that I don't trust myself behind the wheel but more so I don't trust you, the person next to you, the people behind me, the people on the other side of the road. I don't want to die to a drunk driver. What if I pull out of my driving way for the first time in my car and I'm driving safely to wherever and I never reach my destination because some asshat on the road was driving drunk and killed me. That's extremely terrifying. But, I can't let these fears dictate what I do with my life. I'm not required to drive but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try.
I'm 23 years old and I think this is a portion of life that I just need to cross off the list and get it done and over with so it can fade to the background of life.
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